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its been a month.. yeah it is.. and in another month im gonna take firefly.. yeah some sort a 'vacation' for six or maybe one year in somewhere far from here.. how im i gonna survive? well i dont know.. but i hope so.. the good news is im gonna be a bit excited for upcoming raya.. well dont even know why.. but just feel like it.. and yes bastard you ruin my life.. just wait and see.. and did i mention my energy level has been fantastic?.. yeah it does.. i dont even realize it.. kinda like the new me.. :)

pissssedd off

God what should i do?.. urh bad as it is.. of course im not the only one.. but i shouldn't be the last one.. you do the math .. just whatever smart people should already know that.. unless we are just friends.. yeah that's it.. just friends.. not even a tiny biny closer than that.. but its just ok.. im gonna find new one soon.. its just plain evil.. its that hard to at lease appreciate me? .. yeah whatever.. deep down inside i just feel pissed off.. that all... who im i kidding? hoping for some magical? in the real world there is no such thing.. at lease not in my world.. And yeah i have to be just like you.. isnt this ironic.. oh and yeah you dont even know what im talking about right?.. so typically you..