Im not a girl,not yet women

Im Nine teens.. young?.. remaja akhiran.. next year im turning two zero.. Sgt x seronok sbb da x teens lagi da.. As i grow older.. decision kne wat sendiri.. pros and cons.. kena suffer sendiri.. Sigh*.. i dont like it.. but suka x suka kena wat jugak.. Ok.. bila pkir2 balik* eceh muhasabah diri la konon.. hmm barang2 aku semua pun kartun2 ag.. X matured lgsg.. haha..perangai pun samee.. Tapi kalo ak matured sgt plak nanti jadi bosan.. serius jek all the time.. I want to live my life to the fullies .. Redah je la pape yg terjadi pun.. Time skrg la nak try byk benda.. Learn so many new stuff.. Once i settle down, da ade tanggunjwb semua.. * eceh3 poyo rilex la lame lagi kot.. I may not be perfect but parts of me are awesome.. haha.. so guna an kelebihan yg ade..Maybe i do have flaws.. but yg penting perbaikinya.. If i want things to change then i must change.. Benda remeh temeh da malas nak pikir da.. buat pening otak jeh.. nak fokus on bigger stuff in my life.. Problems tolak ke tepi dulu please stay away from my life..haha.. I just need second chance..ya allah please.. I know i been such a spoilt brat.. I cant give up now.. A litle hope please.. hmm..

The other side of me..

Semua bermula just for fun.. sekarang jadi serius?.. Unexpected just happen... People said expect the unexpected.. Tapi aku bukan super hero.. I cant predict life.. Just go with the flow .. Mungkin ini terbaik .. Ntah la.. Tak berani nak cakap pape2.. Diluah mati bapak ditelan mati mak *not sure btl ke x.... Aku baru 19 years old... Tidak perlu pikir terlalu jauh.. Atlease not at this moment.. How can i take care of people when i cant take care of myself.. Love is easy the relationship is tough *ckp seperti expert tapi tidak mempunyai experience .. hmm..Feelings susah berubah but my reaction sometimes tak bergantung pada feelings.. Jodoh dan pertemuan di tangan tuhan.. Berserah, redha dan pasrah.. *kenapa tiba2 aku cakap macam orang sudah matured?.. Jauh lagi perjalanan aku ini.. Masih tak kenal dunia, masih ingin mengejar cita2.. Right guy , wrong time and wrong guy right time.. Aku nie suka berahsia.. Sometime unpredictable jugak.. Pendengar yang baik akan paham aku.. Bila rasaku ini rasamu.. Org kata aku ini mysterious type dan kadang2 heartless.. Dan aku nie bukan panas baran tapi keras hati mungkin akan jumpa orang yang panas baran tapi lembut hati.. When u talk i will listen but when ur quiet i will talk.. Better said too much than dont have to say what you need to say again..Or ckp terlalu banyak boleh datang banyak musibah?..Cakap org suruh make it simple tapi kamu yang complicated.. haha..Sometimes i dont understand myself..Oh yeah mungkin aku akan ada no celcom lepas ini.. * harap2 ada stock.. hmmmm..Aku perlu learning and petunjuk. . Ya allah permudahkan lah perjalanan ku ini..Bersabarlah..

Sometimes

Yep sometimes giving up isn't a bad thing after all.. I cant read people's mind.. so be it.. What's done cannot be undone.. That's it i got my own life to take care of.. Enough is enough.. My decision is final..

Buat hal

Hari nie.. aku buat hal.. yep.. mmg buat hal.. kenapa?.. saja nk try something different.. gedik an?.. haha.. x pew2.. nobody's know's the truth anyway.. hehe.. I cant pretend that nothing happen.. but anyway.. just tell the truth jelah anwyay.. :D

1st

Oh gila lah aku ini.. Ya allah permudahkan lah perjalanan ini.. sigh.. i ask people to be strong.. tapi kenapa i feel weak and not so suree.. the things is suruh org be cool, chill, rilex.. padahal you know deep inside macam nak scream kuat2 satu malaysia nie dengar.. bodoh kan?.. tapi nak wat camne.. things happen, aku sendiri pun x taw ape sebenarnya aku buat sekarang nie..haha.. org kate just go with the flow~~, just go with the flow~~.. rasa nak sepak2 pipi nie.. Yang nak buat dah buat, skrg nak face the next step.. Its not easy and it will never be..Im just scared thats all maybe because its your 1st experience..Perasaan berdebar, awkward , weird.. Damn it...

ehehheheh..

malu aku.. :).. hahahha..
lupa plak benda nie org leh baca..
hahaha..
kantoi..
hmmm...
nothing happens actually kawan2..
is just a stupid crush..
hahaha..

Oh god!..

Hmm.. i dont want them, i want him.. huhu.. but please kc, dont get ur hopes too high.. He could be the one.. but still i couldn't say for sure..Oh god please, if he is the guy for me let our journey be safe and happy.. :)..