Im not a girl,not yet women

Im Nine teens.. young?.. remaja akhiran.. next year im turning two zero.. Sgt x seronok sbb da x teens lagi da.. As i grow older.. decision kne wat sendiri.. pros and cons.. kena suffer sendiri.. Sigh*.. i dont like it.. but suka x suka kena wat jugak.. Ok.. bila pkir2 balik* eceh muhasabah diri la konon.. hmm barang2 aku semua pun kartun2 ag.. X matured lgsg.. haha..perangai pun samee.. Tapi kalo ak matured sgt plak nanti jadi bosan.. serius jek all the time.. I want to live my life to the fullies .. Redah je la pape yg terjadi pun.. Time skrg la nak try byk benda.. Learn so many new stuff.. Once i settle down, da ade tanggunjwb semua.. * eceh3 poyo rilex la lame lagi kot.. I may not be perfect but parts of me are awesome.. haha.. so guna an kelebihan yg ade..Maybe i do have flaws.. but yg penting perbaikinya.. If i want things to change then i must change.. Benda remeh temeh da malas nak pikir da.. buat pening otak jeh.. nak fokus on bigger stuff in my life.. Problems tolak ke tepi dulu please stay away from my life..haha.. I just need second chance..ya allah please.. I know i been such a spoilt brat.. I cant give up now.. A litle hope please.. hmm..