aku sedih.. aku binggung.. aku hampa..aku kecewa..aku merana.. aku terseksa..aku menyeksa.. aku ketawa... aku gila.. aku membenci.. aku dibenci.. aku membenci kata-kata benci..aku hilang.. aku diam.. aku pergi..aku kembali.. aku mendusta..aku sengsara.. aku sunyi.. aku tidak dipeduli.. aku tidak diperlu..aku tidak menangis..aku merasa sendiri..aku kecil..aku menyesal..aku dikesali..aku ditinggal....aku tidak mengetahui.. aku tidak memberitahu... aku tidak diberitahu..aku bertanya.. aku disoal.. aku bersoal..aku keliru..
I hate.. I been hated.. I frustrated.. im lost.. I got bet..I lose.. I gone... Im numb..i suffer.. I fall...
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Myself 1
Cake she.
You can call her Miss cayce,
But please pronounce it kc
She was born on April the tenth,
In a city called klang by then
She gets easily obsess in things,
One of them is chocolates and games
She is a social phobic,
That’s simply nervous in front of public
Even though she is not an affable type
But still she can apprise people’s right
Her words is so much caustic
When you get in her nerves is kinda pathetic
Don’t try to call her cute
Or even to call her astute
Life rules is quite simple and tight
When you love god everything’s gonna be alright
She really love when peoples entertain her
When you do that she will remember you forever
The reason that keep her breathing
Is family and friends that keep on loving
Please forgive her for past mistakes,
She’ll be thankful to end these days.
You can call her Miss cayce,
But please pronounce it kc
She was born on April the tenth,
In a city called klang by then
She gets easily obsess in things,
One of them is chocolates and games
She is a social phobic,
That’s simply nervous in front of public
Even though she is not an affable type
But still she can apprise people’s right
Her words is so much caustic
When you get in her nerves is kinda pathetic
Don’t try to call her cute
Or even to call her astute
Life rules is quite simple and tight
When you love god everything’s gonna be alright
She really love when peoples entertain her
When you do that she will remember you forever
The reason that keep her breathing
Is family and friends that keep on loving
Please forgive her for past mistakes,
She’ll be thankful to end these days.
Write 4
Aku ilhamku
Aku memerhati di luar jendela,
Angin yang menghembus begitu nikmatnya
Aku menyusun kembali segala memori,
Kerana ianya tidak akan berulang lagi
Aku jatuh di lembah yang hina,
mengorak langkah untuk berdiri semula
Aku hinggap di pohon berduri,
Mencari-cari kelemahan diri
Aku menunggu hawa yang setia,
sanggup menerima diriku seadanya
Aku belajar untuk menghargai,
Teman yang benar sukar dicari
Aku tersentap melihat si dia,
Masih binggung dan terpinga-pinga
Aku mendaki gunung yang tinggi,
Mencari kehidupan yang belum pasti
Aku membaling segala duka,
Tidak terlintas untukku merana
Aku merakam detik-detik terakhir ini
kemudian bermula sebuah peristiwa menanti.
*bahasa ibunda pulak.. slalu english.. kali nie lain.. in malay wasnt that fun but still it was meaningful..
Aku memerhati di luar jendela,
Angin yang menghembus begitu nikmatnya
Aku menyusun kembali segala memori,
Kerana ianya tidak akan berulang lagi
Aku jatuh di lembah yang hina,
mengorak langkah untuk berdiri semula
Aku hinggap di pohon berduri,
Mencari-cari kelemahan diri
Aku menunggu hawa yang setia,
sanggup menerima diriku seadanya
Aku belajar untuk menghargai,
Teman yang benar sukar dicari
Aku tersentap melihat si dia,
Masih binggung dan terpinga-pinga
Aku mendaki gunung yang tinggi,
Mencari kehidupan yang belum pasti
Aku membaling segala duka,
Tidak terlintas untukku merana
Aku merakam detik-detik terakhir ini
kemudian bermula sebuah peristiwa menanti.
*bahasa ibunda pulak.. slalu english.. kali nie lain.. in malay wasnt that fun but still it was meaningful..
Monday, December 29, 2008
tiga tambah empat.
1. 7 CIRI LELAKI IDAMAN ANDA :
-family type.
-boleh amik hati my dad (berpelajaran dan beruwang)
-boleh amik hati my brother (islam yg baik)
-with looks.. haha. kawin skali je kan nak kena menghadap die sepanjang hidup..-my dad's words..
-full of surprises..(romantik and funny)-mcm edward cullen..
-bertanggung jawab.
-love me more than i could love him.. haha-its was my moms words..
(kesimpulannya aku sgt choosy.. haha... ada future andartu..)
2. 7 LELAKI YANG TIDAK PERNAH ANDA MINATI SEPANJANG HIDUP:
-pervert.
-berlagak pandai
-x dew keinginan utk memperbaiki diri
-menindas wanita.
-lemah dari segi mental dan fizikal
-pendirian x tetap..
-pentingkan diri sendiri.
3. 7 PERASAAN ANDA SEKIRANYA KELUAR DENGAN ORANG YANG DIMINATI... (skrg perasaan ak gak heartless tapi bolehlah pretend)
-Butterflies
-goffyness. aku mesti memalukan diri sendiri..
-x terckp..diam memanjang..
-pandang dier wt muka serius tapi bile dier x nampak senyum bkn main ag..haha
-asyik2 betulkan baju & tudung etc.
-awkwardness(definitely not myself)
-kegatalan increase.. haha..
4. 7 benda yang ingin anda beri kepada si dia :
-smile.
-cubitan.tamparan hebat.wawa.
-full attention
-sbnrnya ak x fall in love lagi jugak..
5. Tajuk Lagu Yang Akan Anda Nyanyikan Untuk Pasangan Anda:
-sore aku x sedap.. masa kareoke aku nyanyi lagu shanana by amy mastura.. (sbb tue jer senang)lagu tue jelah yg boleh.. haha..
6. Rakan Yang Anda Tag Dan Mahu Mereka Buat 7 PERIHAL Ini
kawan aku sumer mcm da buat.. x yah tag sesapa..
-family type.
-boleh amik hati my dad (berpelajaran dan beruwang)
-boleh amik hati my brother (islam yg baik)
-with looks.. haha. kawin skali je kan nak kena menghadap die sepanjang hidup..-my dad's words..
-full of surprises..(romantik and funny)-mcm edward cullen..
-bertanggung jawab.
-love me more than i could love him.. haha-its was my moms words..
(kesimpulannya aku sgt choosy.. haha... ada future andartu..)
2. 7 LELAKI YANG TIDAK PERNAH ANDA MINATI SEPANJANG HIDUP:
-pervert.
-berlagak pandai
-x dew keinginan utk memperbaiki diri
-menindas wanita.
-lemah dari segi mental dan fizikal
-pendirian x tetap..
-pentingkan diri sendiri.
3. 7 PERASAAN ANDA SEKIRANYA KELUAR DENGAN ORANG YANG DIMINATI... (skrg perasaan ak gak heartless tapi bolehlah pretend)
-Butterflies
-goffyness. aku mesti memalukan diri sendiri..
-x terckp..diam memanjang..
-pandang dier wt muka serius tapi bile dier x nampak senyum bkn main ag..haha
-asyik2 betulkan baju & tudung etc.
-awkwardness(definitely not myself)
-kegatalan increase.. haha..
4. 7 benda yang ingin anda beri kepada si dia :
-smile.
-cubitan.tamparan hebat.wawa.
-full attention
-sbnrnya ak x fall in love lagi jugak..
5. Tajuk Lagu Yang Akan Anda Nyanyikan Untuk Pasangan Anda:
-sore aku x sedap.. masa kareoke aku nyanyi lagu shanana by amy mastura.. (sbb tue jer senang)lagu tue jelah yg boleh.. haha..
6. Rakan Yang Anda Tag Dan Mahu Mereka Buat 7 PERIHAL Ini
kawan aku sumer mcm da buat.. x yah tag sesapa..
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Style me cow.
Hari raya
Hari raya haji lepas.. aku n family g one place around rawang.. ada buat majlis korban.. kena tolang masak etc. penat lah jugak untuk org yg x slalu buat kerja nie.. hehe.. anyway.. abg aku ditugaskan masak nasi daging.. so aku kena tolonglah.. like always.. kena perli buat kerja x betul.. what do you expect makcik?.. aku x byk makan garam lagi.. ofcourse x taw masak.. tapi depan dier aku senyum jelah.. x melawan eh.. even kat umah pun bibik aku yang masak.. bukan lah x taw langsung nak masak Cuma kalau suwuh pandai terus ofcourse take time kan?.. yang bapak aku plak menambah2 ‘ha tulah dah besar pun x reti buat kerja..nie ajar dier cukup2’....tapi bapak aku tukang arah jer.. aku yg buat selebihnya. kebengangan lah aku..
Muscle contraction .. masa chek tgh potong daging tue tetiba daging tue gerak2 .. aku pown dgn bataknya.. ‘daging tue geraklah’.. chek ‘ha ah lah..’ pastu chek tetiba lompat dr tempat potong daging.. Pastu abglong.. datang dier explain .. nie muscle contraction.. sbb ada lagi udara dlm nye.. yalah baru kena sembelih.. masih fresh lagi… aku pown ‘oooh’ abg aku kan doctor.. agaknye dier ada blaja kowt.. hihi.. Untuk mengurangkan rasa kebangann aku cucilah mata.. ehehe.. kat sana ada byk lelaki2 yg membantu operasi korban.. gaga.. dierorg nie probably perkerja saba consultant atau budak2 asrama atau sedara mara etc...
Sebelum korban
Anyway another story.. ina minum air… die buat muka pelik after minum.. but semua org buat x endah jer.. sbb kadang2 ina mmg suka wat muka cam tue.hehe. pastue abglong lak yg minum.. dgn mukanya terasa disgust by it ‘yuks air apa nie..’.. kita org pun cam ‘ha asal?.. air apa?..’ g lah tengok dkt tempat buat air tue.. rupa2nya.. letak sabun basuh kereta.. hadoi.. patutlah rasa pelik.. (nasib baikla aku x terminum).. warna botol tue kaler oren.. budak2 asrama tue ingat air oren.. tapi sebenarnya ada sticker besar dpn tue gambar kereta.. dier org main bantai jer buat.. and ada tukang imam pun satu hal .. g letak dkt dgn tempat makanan tue asal?..haha.. we all to blame.. adik and abang aku jadi mangsa keadaan..kesian..
After korban
Hari raya haji lepas.. aku n family g one place around rawang.. ada buat majlis korban.. kena tolang masak etc. penat lah jugak untuk org yg x slalu buat kerja nie.. hehe.. anyway.. abg aku ditugaskan masak nasi daging.. so aku kena tolonglah.. like always.. kena perli buat kerja x betul.. what do you expect makcik?.. aku x byk makan garam lagi.. ofcourse x taw masak.. tapi depan dier aku senyum jelah.. x melawan eh.. even kat umah pun bibik aku yang masak.. bukan lah x taw langsung nak masak Cuma kalau suwuh pandai terus ofcourse take time kan?.. yang bapak aku plak menambah2 ‘ha tulah dah besar pun x reti buat kerja..nie ajar dier cukup2’....tapi bapak aku tukang arah jer.. aku yg buat selebihnya. kebengangan lah aku..
Muscle contraction .. masa chek tgh potong daging tue tetiba daging tue gerak2 .. aku pown dgn bataknya.. ‘daging tue geraklah’.. chek ‘ha ah lah..’ pastu chek tetiba lompat dr tempat potong daging.. Pastu abglong.. datang dier explain .. nie muscle contraction.. sbb ada lagi udara dlm nye.. yalah baru kena sembelih.. masih fresh lagi… aku pown ‘oooh’ abg aku kan doctor.. agaknye dier ada blaja kowt.. hihi.. Untuk mengurangkan rasa kebangann aku cucilah mata.. ehehe.. kat sana ada byk lelaki2 yg membantu operasi korban.. gaga.. dierorg nie probably perkerja saba consultant atau budak2 asrama atau sedara mara etc...
Sebelum korban
Anyway another story.. ina minum air… die buat muka pelik after minum.. but semua org buat x endah jer.. sbb kadang2 ina mmg suka wat muka cam tue.hehe. pastue abglong lak yg minum.. dgn mukanya terasa disgust by it ‘yuks air apa nie..’.. kita org pun cam ‘ha asal?.. air apa?..’ g lah tengok dkt tempat buat air tue.. rupa2nya.. letak sabun basuh kereta.. hadoi.. patutlah rasa pelik.. (nasib baikla aku x terminum).. warna botol tue kaler oren.. budak2 asrama tue ingat air oren.. tapi sebenarnya ada sticker besar dpn tue gambar kereta.. dier org main bantai jer buat.. and ada tukang imam pun satu hal .. g letak dkt dgn tempat makanan tue asal?..haha.. we all to blame.. adik and abang aku jadi mangsa keadaan..kesian..
Write 2
Meditation
Smell a nice green grass
Feeling, reborn, refresh and realize
Hear my girls talk at night,
Laugh a lot when they fight
After the dark secret reveal
Seeing their faces makes me ill
Feeling a bit guilty baby
Even when I was lonely
Talk to myself and I still got fear
Have some revenge killing my ear
Hard to forget but I’ll forgive
Just need some time to save this gift
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*gambar kat taman rakyat .. but not the same day im writing this..
Story the mory..
I wrote this after get home from ‘AC’ at Taman Rakyat while hanging out with my friends izzah,fiza, nut, mira and mira’s sister (sori lupa nama).. I just thought of writing this. The title is meditation because I am meditating on myself. .. and that’s how the story goes..
Smell a nice green grass
Feeling, reborn, refresh and realize
Hear my girls talk at night,
Laugh a lot when they fight
After the dark secret reveal
Seeing their faces makes me ill
Feeling a bit guilty baby
Even when I was lonely
Talk to myself and I still got fear
Have some revenge killing my ear
Hard to forget but I’ll forgive
Just need some time to save this gift
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*gambar kat taman rakyat .. but not the same day im writing this..
Story the mory..
I wrote this after get home from ‘AC’ at Taman Rakyat while hanging out with my friends izzah,fiza, nut, mira and mira’s sister (sori lupa nama).. I just thought of writing this. The title is meditation because I am meditating on myself. .. and that’s how the story goes..
Monday, December 22, 2008
Write 1
Inside me.
This is my 1st ever lyric, poem whatever you called it.. and its truly based on me.. What’s going on 'inside me'. I can be an awesome friend but an evil enemy.. so don’t mess with me baby.. gaga.. aku tahu aku syok sendiri..heeh..
X dew lagu lagi tapi ada true story time sekolah dulu..;)
After the get over thingy. I just got a new hobby. First I ask fiza to read it but she doesn’t gave any good response so then I ask azleen to read it and she enjoying it.. She said that my words were meaningful. At the bus waiting to come home I ask izzah to read it too.. she told me I could make it a song lyric . after that I feel confident to just write.. eventhough is not that good.. Special thanks to those people who gave me the guts.. but actually there is one guy and a lady that give me an inspiration to write this so called lyric or maybe a poem. They been in this journey for a long time.. I kind of follow their idea but they don’t know it.. anyway if you like it or want to know more just let me know..;)
My brain and my heart are married couple
And a young healthy baby was born afterwards.
I talk with my heart at night,
But I talk with my brain in daily light.
A thing about me is that
I got a heart like an angle
But a brain likes a devil
So when the heart stops to talk
The brain will make his moves
But I got confuse when they fight
Because I don’t know who to choose and who were right
Since the day they say I do, they can’t never be separated
Even when they were argue , they will make it through.
And a young healthy baby was born afterwards.
I talk with my heart at night,
But I talk with my brain in daily light.
A thing about me is that
I got a heart like an angle
But a brain likes a devil
So when the heart stops to talk
The brain will make his moves
But I got confuse when they fight
Because I don’t know who to choose and who were right
Since the day they say I do, they can’t never be separated
Even when they were argue , they will make it through.
This is my 1st ever lyric, poem whatever you called it.. and its truly based on me.. What’s going on 'inside me'. I can be an awesome friend but an evil enemy.. so don’t mess with me baby.. gaga.. aku tahu aku syok sendiri..heeh..
X dew lagu lagi tapi ada true story time sekolah dulu..;)
After the get over thingy. I just got a new hobby. First I ask fiza to read it but she doesn’t gave any good response so then I ask azleen to read it and she enjoying it.. She said that my words were meaningful. At the bus waiting to come home I ask izzah to read it too.. she told me I could make it a song lyric . after that I feel confident to just write.. eventhough is not that good.. Special thanks to those people who gave me the guts.. but actually there is one guy and a lady that give me an inspiration to write this so called lyric or maybe a poem. They been in this journey for a long time.. I kind of follow their idea but they don’t know it.. anyway if you like it or want to know more just let me know..;)
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