Beach Holiday..

Bunyi cambest je.. tapi.. well for the LPKPP yang program wajib for all uitm student tue.. Venue die kat bachok kelantan at pantai irama.. Start pagi pukul 7 bertolak.. smpai dlam kul 9 lelebih.. En. Wan , jue and kamarul besekomplot mengembar gemburkan cerita duk kat chalet.. Aku da baynag ad katil single 1 bilik 2 org.. ad telefon for room service, peti ais kecik, tv kecik, gelas, heater, aircond.. dan lain2… Tapi… cam indah khabar dari rupa.. air kejap2 ada kejap2 x dew… mmg mendengki aku betul.. Tapi berbaloi lah dengan harga RM500 for 26 student plus 6 lecturer sekali makan.. mmg budget habis.. then ada aktivit sal bangau oh bangau.. moral of the story.. jangan salah kan org lain kalau result x bagus.. example jadual , lecturer.. hoho.. sorry lecturer kalau saya ad wat silap.. (ceh mcm lecturer ak baca blog ak plak ) Then makan.. best part.. patu ceramah yg sgt mengantukkan diri.. hoho..aku paksa diri utk tidak telelap.. yang len sebuk mesej2 dgn bf memasing.... mengadu lah kowt.. ad yang da seronok di buai mimpi.. haha.. ad yang borak2 , bermanja2 dgn rakan sebelah.. heh2.. then da abis ceramah ak sampai je bilik aku spent time dgn bantal dan katil.. haha.. phm2 jelah once da telelap da malas nak bangun.. kengkawan ak yang lain da seronok bermandi-manda kat pantai.. aku tinggal kat bilik sensorng.. tgk2 da lambat.. aku solat asar pun da lambat.. hoho.. nak mandi air cam sudi x sudi..then tgk2 da lambat org yg incharge makan malam da angkut da.. x sempat aku nak makan.. bedebah betul.. Ceramah malam cam okey lah ak da x ngantuk sgt.. lapau and penat tue ada lah.. tekejut ak Miss G, lecturer bio ingat nama aku.. padahal x pernah bertegur sapa , sbb x pernah mengajar pun.. mmg sgt peka.. otak bio lah kowt.. pakar megingat2.. tapi yg aku x paham syaz dier leh ingat ayat bio yang menjela2 tue tapi bila pesan belikan makanan x ingat.. patu tah paper tah dier beli.. haha.. anyway ak yg still kelaparan.. dgn muka ceria menjamah minum malam yang disedikan.. org lain makan 2 je kuih.. aku bantai 4 kuih.. haha.. Part yg paling best... hihi.. aku dan rakan2.. berjalan malam2 tepi2 pantai..aku balas dendam sbb ptg td x sempat nak join.. Perasaannya sgt best.. Angin sepoi2 bahasa.. bintang sangat banyak.. kalau kat KL kompem ssh nak nampak bintang.. bintang bersinar menyinari langit.. bunyi ombar yang megasyikkan.. terasa pasir2 terlekat kat kaki.. pantainya sgt bersih and terasa bahang maybe sbb malam..Kamarul berpoyo2 konon2 nampak comet ..haha.. once in a lifetime konon.. Sgt romentik.. hoho.. Semua kepenatan , keletihan, kebencian terasa hilang .. Oh pantai sungguh tenang.. All the hard work worth the beach.. I love beach..smile

Last paper..

Today on the last day of paper kimia , 8.5.2010. I feel so happy and terharu.. Because I feels so free and the same time so kosong, mcm x der benda nak fikir… Lecturer yg jaga tue sangat lawak.. Oh menghiburkan.. Senior dak scince amik statistic.. Oh sgt ramai di dewan… As usual aku kebinggungan jawab final.. last paper slalunya yang paling mencabar sbb mood study da kurang.. tapi people wat x endah je sbbnya last paper just nak habiskan then leh balik ke rumah tercinta..

Anyway.., pada malam ini kami semua plan2 nak enjoy2 releasekan ketensionan yang ada sbb da abis exam.. but the unexpected just happen..aku siap yang paling cepat and awal as usual.. Aku ngan awin g bank dulu.. keluarkn duit for us girls.. Then awin berniat nak belikan hadiah hari ibu for her mother.. so she decide nak belikn telekong kat uptown.. anyway, usha punya usha..lama giler.. penat aku tunggu x beli pun.. hoho.. hmm ak x kesah sgt sbb mmg perangai dier cam 2 .. aku tengok jam mcm dah lama die duk usha2.. aku plak da cuak takut2 kengkwan ak da habis makan sbb sblm g bank da janji nak jumpa kat KFC near mydin..Then… dah sampai KFC aku benggang giler kat Nur Syazliana Hj Awang.. die wat lawyer buruk la plak… rasa cam nak cincng2 belah empat puluh empat kerat.. haha.. bley plak dier g tinggalkan ak sensorang kat bawah dier relex2 bawak makanan naik atas.. nak pulak 2 cakap sekerat-sekerat.. x paham aku.. bermasalah betul.. then yg last tinggal ak dan shila nabila with her bf , kamarul.. naik lah bertiga kami… then sampai kat atas.. ak wat muka tahan marah... duk tepi.. and ad kek atas meja.. aku blur.. marah 2 still ad.. then, shitah, awin, syikin , syaz and kamarul.. shout surprise!.. ak still blur.. tgk kat kek cam x dew nama sesiapa pun.. Rupannya.. it was a suprise party for shila nabila and ME!.. Birthday shila 19.april aku plak 10 april.. so they decide wat surprise skali la kowt… hoho.. da lama da mereka plan even before final week start pun.. Mmg sgt surprise.. And I almost cryied.. TERHARU.. TERHARU… Thanks friends.. LOVE YOU ALL…

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Love yourself day.

We are so different.. your like summer, im like winter.. we seems to complete each other.. but nobody's knows that..nobody's can hear that.. so sad ..yet so true.. Since some relationships seems tougher than the others its seems wiser to love yourself first.. I want a relationship where I can be myself and not forcing myself to be like others. I want people to love me for who I am.. not for who im not.. and im only can love the person that love me.. and I want the person that I love to be himself.. just the way he really are inside.. Its really hard to find my soul mate.. I got long way to go.. lots of dreams needs to be taken care of.. I really hope everything’s will go well.. one day when Im ready I hope my prince charming will be too..I want fairy tale love or at lease fairy tale weddings.. (yeah2 my imagination are quite high).. Sigh*.. I want to make it as simple as possible but it never did..

Say

Life is like a gamble.. we dont even know what's gonna happen next.. are we bound to make mistakes.. well i hope not.. breath.. rilex and take it easy.. one step and another.. i make a huge different today.. probably i just said too much.. but then again its better to say too much than dont have to say what you need to say again..

You and I

I want myself back,
where i can feel the breeze,
the thunder, the rain and the sun,

Now the life become lost and stressful,
I am sorry for everything love,

If you were for me i wont feel sorry,
If you were for me i don't have to worry,

Still searching for your shadow,
Still wanting for your sole,

Because i dont want to lose,
Because i dont want to get myself confuse,

Are you for me?
Are you with me?

Only the one knows,
One have the answer,

Let me forget if i cant have forever,
Let me be free if it wasnt meant together.

I don't know what im capable of,
i don't know if im ready for,

Make the trust tight so that i will be strong,
Let my eyes be wide open if the sense was wrong,

But i never regret in what im saying,
Never feel regret in what im doing,

Now i just laugh trough the confusion,
and smile through the frustration

Because everything happen for a reason,
because everything were meant for each other

When

When i saw you with her,
Its like a sword through my chest,
its like a ghost that freeze thy self.

When i saw you with him,
I feel the pleasure of letting go,
i feel the freedom that never before,

When i am with him,
Its feel like smiling through the heart,
its feel like a guilt that never apart.

When i am with her,
Its like the awkwardness doing the opposite,
Its like the confusion between the feelings.

When i saw ours together,
I cant even speak, no words found
no reaction worth, no sole needed.

When i saw myself in the mirror,
I saw the mysterious future brings me,
i saw the bright lady inside me,

We all makes mistake,
We all said the untruth,
We all suffer for the best,
we all was made for life,

We need time to survive,
We need mankind to be alive,

Trust, a little faith and hope,
Just waiting for a better tomorrow.